It's my party and I'll giggle if I wanna..

Today is my special day!!!

yay...

How Refreshing

Today has been nice. I mean, really nice. School wasn't bad, I mean, it's as good as it's gonna get, right? The weather was gorgeous...our school's show choir, Glitter n Gold is finally starting to pull things together..THANK GOODNESS...I got to talk with Nibbs today, just about all the things in my life that seem to be too overwhelming..so we got some water at Kmart..and picked out some sweet shades for Clinton......and then tonight I talked to Andy on the phone and baked 2 cakes.

Yes 2 cakes, and a batch of cookies. You know why?

Well the cookies are for our Show Choir Invitational on saturday...

But the cakes....they're for my birthday!!!!

That's right bitches, I'm gonna be 16!!! Yay!! (lol..sorry for my French..it's not very good...hahaha)

And hopefully, this year, things will be okay...I guess I shouldn't count my chicks before they hatch though...this one could be a dud again..who knows..

Us

7 months and running...how awesome is that?

Freaky part 2

And yeah....my foot is STILL numb..

Maybe it'll fall off.....hmmm........

This is kinda freaky....

You know what's really scary?

I've lost like almost 10 lbs. in like 2 weeks....and considering how I am barely there as it is, it scares me...


I think it's becuz of all the stress I've had for awhile now....I don't really eat when I'm stressed...

But still, if I turn into just dust, don't be surprised....at least I've warned ppl...

So Misunderstood....

I'm not going to reveal all the extra details on here, because honestly, I don't feel like getting into it......but Andy and I are going to be okay....

I just hate how people start talking about things that they only misunderstand...

Numb

He broke up with me.............................

My Morning Moment

I woke up this morning and I smiled...I heard birds singing.

Ground-breaking

The previous entry was my 100th blog......isn't that exciting??!? yay!!

I want it back

is today the tomorrow of my dreams?
i thought i saw a glimpse of a smile
a ghost of a happiness that i so long to see
maybe all is simply visions and fantasies
of silliness and reoccurent childhood yearning.
i wish for that innocence
that naive life and existance only attained by a child
so that maybe the things to which i know not how to handle,
the terrors of my sleeps
and my awake horrors alike,
would not seem so important
and i could focus on better things...
why is the sky blue?
can i have some ice cream?
if the earth is going round, why don't we all fall?
what is terrorism, what exactly does violence mean?
what does it mean to love
and what does it mean to love and die from it?
and though some questions now answered,
i beg to know why we all want to grow up
because the minute, the second we do,
we lose our grasp on life and its purity
we lose our virtue and our youth
we lose ourselves.....