I need You

i have yet to know
why it is that in times
of business and boredom
you're on my mind.
i can't help but replay
what you said
what you did
how you kissed me,
and wish it would repeat.


cuz there's something in the
way you say goodbye
walking away
leaving a terrific tension in the air.
and there's a little bit more
hiding behind that grin
that leaves me knowing there's more in store,
knowing i need you

it's a ridiculous addiction
that makes me breathless
groping for grip
and reaching for you.
why is it that
i can't get over
the way your hand felt in mine
or the stars dancing in your eyes.

cuz there's something in the
way you say goodbye
walking away
leaving a terrific tension in the air.
and there's a little bit more
hiding behind that grin
that leaves me knowing there's more in store,
knowing i need you.

i don't know how you do it
but i won't stop you.
cuz it leaves me wanting more,
knowing i need you

Graduation

already happened. and i've managed to busy myself sooo much that i haven't said anything about anything since the last day of eternity. ugh.

but then again i'm not too sure what i would've said, except for little rantings about how i wanted everything to be over, and now it is, so yeah.

but yes. the whole ceremony thing and party thing and family situation (we had 9 people staying here) went well. i got a bunch of money and stuff so that was nice. we've got about 50 lbs of pulled pork left over from the festivities, but there's no complaining here, cuz it's the shit. i guess right now all i'm doing is sitting around asking myself what i should do with my free time and wishing it was friday.

yeah. hmmm..

Trent

so. this is my boyfriend lol. he's a pretty terrific guy, if you ask me. lots of people say how random it is that we date. "he's dirtbikes and she's high heels". or so i've heard. which is kinda true, but we work. who cares if we're kinda different. we're kinda the same too lol.

lately we've been spending a lot of time with each other, but then again, i think we're kinda like each other's life lines. when i'm stressed out and ripping my hair becuz of school and people and things i need to do, he sits me down and settles my nerves. when he's frustrated and silently angry about his dad, or his malfunctioning car, i rub his back and tell him it'll be ok.

we like to go out with friends, to hang out and visit, especially with all the returning collegiates home from campus. we like to sit at home and watch the movies on the movie channel. we even like to crash on the couch and take naps together in the middle of the afternoon. we surf the net, ending up on youtube, and look up funny clips, rockin songs, and of course the shots of his monster trucks towing or jumping or mudding through something. i think it doesn't matter what we do. we have fun. we're easy to please.

sometimes we talk about the fall. and how i'll be 3 hours away. but then we remember i'll come home every once in a while, i have a long winter break, and when he comes down to visit, we'll be able to snuggle all night without one of us having to be home on time.

at this point i realize that i love rough hands that've seen all kinds of work, scruffy beards and cowboy boots; flannel shirts, tight-butt jeans, chevy truck hats and a hint of a southern drawl. everything about him, and who i become around him, i love.

and it'll be 4 months tomorrow that i've been loving him. :)

I Have

-four days of high school left. ever.
-lots of family coming from all over next weekend. bah.
-lots of stress OFF my chest.
-this weird thing going on with my eyes. they're all red. weird.
-a super awesome boyfriend.
-a craving for cheesecake. mmmmm.
-a pocket, got a pocket full of sunshine....hahaha. sorry.
-a huge urge to run away to new zealand to play in those big plastic balls and see the kangaroos.
-a lot on my plate. surprise.

In Each Other's Eyes

late night
dreaming
rolling around
in a pile of blankets-
i want you there.
evening
movies
snuggled up
in the nook of the couch-
i want you there,
wish you were there.

my heart still beats for you
even after you're gone.
my skin feels bare
without you there
i'm naked and alone.
why can't we stay
forever this way
forget what other people say
let's lay.
and live in each other's eyes.

afternoon
sunshine
walking slow
feeling the grass on my toes-
i want you there.
twilight
starlight
laying down
with my face to the skies-
i want you there,
wish you were there.

my heart still beats for you
even after you're gone.
my skin feels bare
without you there
i'm naked and alone.
why can't we stay
forever this way
forget what other people say
let's lay.
and live in each other's eyes.

feelings like this, you just can't disguise.
let's live in each other's eyes