Well I'm Still Alive

i think. busy with school and work and living. in general.
guess i should be happy. since i'm doing good in school
and i have a job
...and that i'm still living.
and it's not that i'm not happy.
i guess it's more like
i'm not ecstatic.
i'm..hmm.
coasting.
that's a word that fits.
which as i said
is ok.
but sometimes coasting isn't good enough
because you know it can be better
right?
yeah...i know i'm right.
i also know that i wish i could be
ecstatic.
instead i shall just be
static.