Just why....

....Isn't it funny how we always get what we ask for?

I mean, it's not always when and where we want it, but for me, it's happened. And that's not good.

I just think about everything and I want to kick myself, because just when you think everything is perfect and it couldn't be better, things come along, show what you COULD have, what COULD happen, and it changes your whole way of thinking.

It's just all so confusing and frustrating right now. I don't know what to do anymore......