What I've learned

so i guess u have to take a fall before u can fully rise.
more like u have to take a fall, then be tripped, then stepped on my the people u trust.

then u can rise.

but before that? nope. there u are - practically part of the ground.
i never really thought i did anything to deserve what always seem to happen to me. i still don't think i did anything. i'm just a simple small town girl, trying to get by in high school, dealing with drama just like the rest of them.

i guess to someone out there it seems necessary for me to be given great things in life, only to have them taken away. i mean, i guess if this unknown person or being thinks it is needed that i ride an emotional roller-coaster for what has it been now..a year (?)...i guess i should just roll with the punches and get over it.

becuz that's what i'm supposed to do i guess. i mean, when the guy i'm kinda dating lies to me, when my best friend ditches me, and when another close friend stabs me in the back~pretty much~ i'm expected to get over it. ok. yep. becuz, u know, i have no feelings whatsoever, and i can just snap back from all that whenever u want me to.

so whatever...i'm so sick of people expecting this, and wanting that out of me. i'm better than that. i don't need that in my life. and i will get over it.

but not for anyone else but myself. i guess it just sucks when all that happens...especially at once.