I have

this nagging.
this little feeling scratching
from the inside.
it's restless.
but about what i do not know.
maybe it's those tests
that i'm not prepared for-
i never seem to be.
senior year is harder than i thought
already.
maybe it's that busy schedule
that i review every night
in my head
to myself.
it could be the distress i've felt
for someone close..
whose current state is worse than i knew
and i know not how to help.
it might be my car
that never seems to run properly...
it's a strain.
then again it could be that boy
who i for so long waited for
and now i have that date
to the dance
but the hint of something more?
i wish i could tell.
maybe it's this cold
that i can't seem to shake
and restricts my nasal breathing..
all of these.
any of these.
i'm not unhappy.
i can't be.. i'm thrilled with what happened
this weekend.
i'm just feeling
half-way down
and am not sure why.