Christmas season

i like it when i get on a kick of writing a lot.
that way when i look back and think about the past i have sort of guidelines.
BUT i've slacked. again. it sure has been awhile.

the whole cute boy thing is lost. he didn't feel the same, but it's ok since it's not like i was head-over-heels about him. so i'm by myself. during the holidays. which is a first for me, seeing as for the past three years i've always had a special someone this time of year. it kinda depresses me in a minimal way, you know, no one to snuggle with, kiss when the clock strikes twelve, so on and so forth. i'll deal. the whole dream of escaping away to college just keeps getting closer and closer and i honestly think that's the only thing getting me through.

i have been feeling lonely though. not for guys, although that would be nice, but for friends plain and simple. most of them seem to ignore and forget me more often than not and it's disheartening to the highest degree. like i said though, with OU looming closer into view, i've been trying to be as positive as possible.

my cousin natalie got engaged a couple weeks ago. chad hardy. they're adorable together, and i'm really excited about helping her plan the wedding. nowadays when i see her, she's just glowing. she's so happy and it's definitely contagious. this of course gives me more hope for my college years and another reason to want to make these months go by faster.

on a lighter note, i went to see sweeney todd last night. starring my dreamboat johnny depp, this musical by sondheim is about a barber who, looking for revenge, comes back to london after escaping prison (incarcerated under false accusations) and becomes a barber who slits his customers' throats. his mistress downstairs in turn takes the bodies and turns them into meat pies. it's quite gruesome, and yet while the slicing of jugulars and spurting of blood was in a way revolting, demonic, and morbid, it was funny? i dunno, just the way they made it i laughed. but it was brilliant. pry my new favorite movie. ever. johnny has an amazing singing voice, and with the big-name cast behind him, this movie was funny, moving, disturbing, and amazing. i encourage everyone to go see it. heck. i wanna see it again.

sooooooo yeah.
oh and christmas was good. i got my ipod which is sweet. and i played at a church in knoxville christmas eve, and it was a beautiful service. it was just all in all a very happy holiday time. so far. hah.