Thinking..

soo. three weeks in. and i'm wishing it was still that first day when i hadn't even seen trent for weeks.

time flies, i know it does, but i just wish it flew slower. a couple weeks before christmas, i'm not done shopping, and i'm sick with a weird bronchitis diagnosis, and i'm just wishing that it was summer already.

oh and i've been kicking around ideas of transferring.........yeah.

i guess i'm bumming about having to go back. i don't like being there, with the partying i never take part in, the people that alienate me, and being away from home, from family, from trent.

i find myself praying lately that this thing between us..trent and i......isn't just a fluke.

i crave him ya know? i just wanna be around him all the time, just watching tv or playing with the dog or making out *a favorite of mine*. i can't ever stop thinking about him, and at the same time i dread that day i once again have to leave - him and my family. my home.

next year will be different. it has to be. or else i don't think i'll be able to make it.