Escaping You

a single tear holds to my face
and makes its slow journey downward
as i ponder why you do this.
my pain is just your joy,
for all i do is amuse-
and yet annoy.
my existance has no real meaning
in your cold, hard eyes,
mocking me,
pushing me back to the ground
after several attempts to rise.
perhaps, to you, i am useless
and serve you no good.
you could be right.
but when you make me feel so low
i can't breathe, and slink away into dark
far from light,
i can not fight
that urge to die,
to end it all.
it's because of you
i've made this fall.
my mind is in a torrent
when will this madness
horror stop?
never,
nothing echoes inside my head,
along with those hurtful
words you said.
now, down on my hands and knees,
i'm past the begging of mercy
forgiveness,
for what have i done?
now
lost,
crawling to my unknown destination,
maybe i can leave you behind
as i make one last move-
growing wings to fly...