Bad Idea

Sitting here tonite, I have nothing to do but sit around and feel depressed, so I thought, well, I'm just gonna look over some of my old blogs.....bad idea.

I ended up re-reading all of the blogs in which I had mentioned Andy. (Which was a lot...I've been reading for awhile..) And right now I feel so horrible and alone....I wish I could just....I don't know...

I love him....I know he wants his space right now and I have to respect that....but damn it, talk about buying a ticket on the emotional roller-coaster ride....*sigh* I just need to wait....if time is what he wants, I'll give it...not easily, but I'll give it.

I hate crying.......