He is so

unattainable.

or i shouldn't say that becuz well...he wasn't so "unattainable" a week ago.

but how are u supposed to uphold a little fling, and nurture it into a would-be relationship when he lives in columbus? and u only really talk to him over the phone? and the likeliness of really seeing him that much is v. v. minimum?

and what do i know about him anyways? that he swept me off of my feet, treated me the way i've wanted to be treated, said all the right things and flirted the right way, and managed to make me feel amazing.

he's prolly a player....one of those guys with 5 girls calling him every night, a different date every weekend, and too many numbers to deal with. not that he is a jerk, but he's gorgeous. and funny. and sweet....he's good at the smooth talk. and if he can win a girl's heart in 4 days, someone from out of town that he's never even met before, then what's stopping him from a town full of more available girls?

then again.....he's called me every night since the camp where we met...and tells me how he thinks about me and really does like me. i guess he wouldn't do that unless he meant it right?

gosh i'm working myself up over nothing...i need to stop this.