The Past few weeks

i hate it when you think everything is amazing and perfect and you're just rolling along on your pretty little sidewalk, and all of the sudden you trip on a crack.

and all the books and papers and whatever else you were holding just spill all over the place.
into that person's yard...the street....and then of course that's when some muddy old truck runs over everything and you're screwed.

i didn't get josh. and i won't have josh. becuz according to josh, he never liked me anyways.

now.....i can't take that to be true. not after all that's happened..all that he's said. no.

i will however accept the fact that sydney is an obsessive.....yeah. and she kinda ruined things for me. but then again...he's not with her either. or so he says.

i would write about homecoming. i was so pumped. but it sucked. so i won't.

i will however comment on the fact that i spent all day at OU and after officially deciding that i'm gonna go there, i'm so excited. it was the second time i had visited, and i just fell more in love with it. walking the campus, just strolling through all the red brick buildings, smelling the golden brown leaves that swirled with a breeze at my feet, i felt at home. and it was great. seriously.

lately all i wanna do is just pick up and move down there. start my life. do what i really wanna do instead of waiting around here filling up the space. i now know exactly how all of last year's seniors felt...and i miss them more than ever.

i wanna move on to better things rather than sitting here, knowing i'll just leave my friends soon, taking mind-blowing classes, and watching that someone i've crushed on for so long just pass me by...