I Pray

for strength. i pray for wisdom. i pray that moving out, leaving this room, and going to another one is right.

i pray that the girls won't hate me for doing this. i have to do this, for me. i pray that the place i end up, wherever it may be, is better than here.

i pray that i'm happier for this decision. i pray that i can feel more comfortable, more at home in this strange new world of athens. i pray that things will maybe get just a little easier.

i pray that i stay on top of my studies. i pray that my classes don't get the best of me. i pray that i encounter the courage to stand up for my beliefs and the integrity to stick to them. i pray that i have the patience to get things done, the endurance to finish.

i pray i find inside myself a calmness, one that soothes and relaxes. i need to relax. i pray that i will learn how to breathe again.

i pray that through all this, all the tense conversations and tearful goodbyes, that i can make it through these months without such heavy homesickness. i pray that my mom, my dad, my brother and my trent, my gramma and poppy, my entire family will stay by me through this tough transition.

i kind of know they will. i guess i pray that i am reminded that they are there. that i'm not alone.

oh god. i pray not to be alone.