It's Already February..

it's a gorgeous day. sun's out, everything's melting.
i hate how i cried when trent left today. he's left before, i've left before. it's not like the first time, the day before i left to come here in september that first time, scared and nervous, and he left to go to school that evening. i cried for 30 mins...missing him aready.

this week of school will be the 5th week. meaning i'll be taking midterms at the end of this week and beginning of next. meaning i'm about halfway through this quarter. meaning i'm weeks away from coming home.

don't get me wrong - it's what i want. i'm so excited about moving home, coming home, to my family, to trent. i feel complete when i'm home. i guess right now, not knowing WHEN i'll be home, or WHEN i'll see them is what scares me.

i just pray that i can have the strength to deal with this for a little longer. about 6 weeks-ish.

god....i miss him already..