On the Brink of (?)

while being as stressed as i have been lately, i'm quite sure it's a miracle i'm still alive. i'm on the edge about anything OSU...waiting for letters, needing to make appointments. and i have all these exams. annd i don't wanna be here.

on top of it all, i worry about trent. he's killing himself trying to find any sort of job, and nothing has come through for months. not having money freaks him out (not that i blame him, not having money freaks me out too) and he's one of those people that HAS to be busy. i mean, he likes to chill, but when he's sitting around all day it drives him crazy. and i call him and try to make me smile, or laugh, and i just feel so helpless becuz sometimes i feel as if even i don't help anymore. there's not much i can do 3 hours away, and even when i'm at home sometimes i feel like i'm just not cutting it.

idk...we're just all worried about the future. finding jobs. paying back loans. somehow. what happened to my childhood? what happened to a carefree life???

people have to grow up so fast nowadays..