Ha, good luck to ya.

Saturday, June 11, 2005

My lack of sleep.

Peter has decided that he should stand back and think things over about us...he doesn't want to hurt me, make me think we might be together, because he doesn't know if that can ever happen. He's afraid to talk to his parents, so he's not sure it'll work. He likes me a lot, he cares about me, he wants to date me/be my boyfriend, but he doesn't want to hurt me, so he's going to think it over. That's what he thinks.

What I think?

He shouldn't be worried, he's already hurting me when he says he needs to think about it. He should just tell his parents that he likes me, and is going to date me...he doesn't have to tell them about all the dates before. He could have them meet me, I know that if they did, they might change their minds. He could listen to his heart, follow his heart.

I personally think we should ride our feelings, take them as far as they'll go. His parents may not know, but I think he should tell him what he's gonna do...we're never gonna get approval if he doesn't say anything.

I like him so much...in so many more ways than I ever did with John. I had a huge fall when John broke up with me..I don't think I can bare to have it happen again in 3 months' time. He means so much.

And then he says stuff like "I'm not saying we'll never be together, I just don't know what to think right now.." and then "I wanna still call you a lot...I'm gonna call from soccer camp this next week...".

I don't know what I'm supposed to think, or how I'm supposed to feel. Happy that he's considering my future broken-heart, or sad and depressed that he's thinking we should stop everything all together. I like him too much to lose him now...but I don't know what I can say to sway him....

Hence my lack of sleep last night...I prolly won't sleep tonight either...

I'm gonna do so bad at my recital.....

2 Comments:

Blogger Megan said...

Awwww, Sarah! Boys can be such boobs. Guys always say that the worst way for a girl to break up with a guy or turn a guy down is to say exactly what Peter is telling you. But it's just as tough on girls!

I haven't talked to you in a while, and MSN is being dumb right now. When we're on at the same time, you can tell me everything. :)

9:56 PM

 
Blogger ~Shibby~ said...

You should definitely tell him to tell his parents. He's gonna be a senior and he can't talk to his parents? Pretty sad if you ask me. I know you really like him, but you shouldn't have to put up with this stuff. Is Peter the reason that you were crying today? Well, whatever the reason, I'd like to know more if you wanna talk about it.

And by the way, you did absolutely wonderful in your recital! You make it look so easy. I most definitely think you were the best one out there! :) And I really like the Vengaboys dance w/ the glasses -- tres hott! Haha.

9:13 PM

 

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