Selfdoubt

Coming home today, I was thinking a lot about Scottey.....and like, I guess that isn't surprising, because I think about him a lot anyhow, but especially after school today. I have to wonder if I'll ever get to be annoying. I don't think I've ever worried about this with a guy....never this much anyway......but like, what if I DO get annoying? What if he suddenly gets tired of me, or what if the stuff I do now he thinks is cute suddenly becomes...not cute? It might be a really dumb thing to worry over. I mean, everyone always says, high school relationships aren't a big deal, you shouldn't stress over them, and honestly, we haven't even been going out for a week.

But there's something about him I can't put my finger on....he's so different, so completely different, and yet maybe that's why I'm so attracted to him. And I want things to be totally perfect. He always seems to know exactly what to say, and when to say it...in the perfect way. All he has to do is smile at me in the hallway and I'm giddy the rest of the day. How awesome is that? At the same time, though, like I said, I feel so....unworthy? I think that's the word I'm looking for.

Maybe I'm overreacting. But seriously....I don't wanna mess ANYTHING up...anything at all. *sigh*......why does he have to be so perfect? ;)....I kinda wish I could see him right now..=D