Holiday

this weekend quite possibly has saved me from any completely and utterly depressing slumps that i might've gotten lost in. not that i am slump-void now for however long a time period. depressive rants are actually frequent visitors in my life. BUT...coming back to my refreshing weekend. it was v. v. impressively nice. of course, friday night was cold, accompanied by very long bus rides to and from skankville, but we won, and in some ways it was very fun. saturday of course, i went to OU, where i not only know i'm going to college, but it just makes me feel so perfectly at home. then coming back to real home, i rounded out my evening by going to a party full of friends with old faces not seen in weeks, and i spent the evening - party, haunted school, and after - with matt. and i didn't realize how much i dearly loved him and missed him until last night. but it was so nice that we could just go around town visiting ppl here and there and still catch up with each other. and beyond filling him in on details and vice versa, he reminded me how he still cares about me, and knows i'm a good, worthwhile person, and expressed his extreme frustration with another person who seems to not see me as such and honestly i don't know why. today then i worked, but went for a walk outside with my mom to my grandparents' house to then continue to stroll through their woods out back. it was SUCH a beautiful day and being outside for 2.5 hours was amazing. and God only knows the wonders it does to have a heart to heart with my mother. add in a little cappuccino, chemistry homework that took 10 minutes and i totally understood it, and a perfect heart-warming, spirit-lifting movie about love and learning to become the leading lady in my life as a movie instead of acting the best friend role - today gave me strength. this weekend gave me strength. it was kind of like a holiday. which by the way, i simply can not wait for. thanksgiving. and christmas. i can't help but smile at the mention of them. oh, i just feel so resolved. and ready to go...anywhere. i feel great..finally.