It Frightens Me

did you know
that when i sit down to think of next year
i get scared?
i never used to have that feeling
maybe because it was farther away
opposed to only a few short months
maybe it's because
i never had someone so close to me
and i didn't have to think of leaving them behind.
family, though i'll miss them desperatly,
is here to stay with me
no matter what
but you?
you could leave
step back whenever
for too many reasons i
don't want to think about.
right now
together
looking in your eyes i know
i've never been happier
or more at ease
or more complete
with anyone.
and i could bet you feel the same
but.
feelings change
you know?
and my greatest fear is you deciding that
feelings aren't enough
when i'm miles away.
i'd love to think that
you're going to be my best friend
for the rest of my life
but i just get so
scared.
after getting so wrapped up in you
so soon
i don't think i could bear having to let you go
if you let me go.
but you say you love me.
and i know that it's true.
i can only pray that it holds
because i love you too