Despite Everything

i play with my hair
waay too much
i guess it's a nervous habit.
i hate peas
and tomatoes
and pickles
and mustard-
i love my meat.
i bite at my lips
when i'm nervous
or upset
and sigh obnoxiously
when i'm pissed.
my face turns
reeeeally red
when i laugh
and i hate my nose.
there's so many times
when i don't know what to say
but i say something anyway
and sound retarded.
i'm kinda clumsy
and sometimes awkward
and i hardly ever feel
beautiful.
but you love me
and make me forget
imprefections
and for awhile
i smile.