I Suck

yesterday was my best friend's 20th birthday.

and yesterday my best friend's best friend died.

and all i could do was cry about my feelings.

because on top of it all

i'm leaving

and i was upset

that he didn't want me there.

and now i'm mad

because when i'm mad at him

i hate myself for being mad

and instead of it

being about me

it should've

been about him.

i suck.