-To show the rift in my mind

...so i've done what you asked. or at least, i've tried. first i went about and forgot about you, voided you from my existence - i realized i really didn't need you. then you called my name out in the dark, your dark, wanting me to shine my light so you could find your way home. was i ever bright enough? i tried to be that light you were looking for and after awhile i thought i succeeded, but go figure, i didn't have the brilliant luster of some others. now, stepping back, i thought that maybe my light would rest from searching you out, thinking maybe i can find my way through my own dark without you, and then you go and make comments about how maybe i was the right light afterall. ha. what a fool i was to fall into your lies again. empty promises, dull goodbyes and lonely nights have proved to me that no matter how much my heart yearns to help you, my light should not shine for you any longer......and my own journey through the dark shall remain dark...or at least, without you...let's just hope i have the stength to block out your voice, that familiar call, for a guide through darkness..





...you thought you forgot me, and i in turn thought you had misplaced my name in a sea of past times and nights on the phone when neither one of us wanted to hang up. those were the days, when i was blind and made choices i wish i could go back on. pushing away all i knew was good and right and best for me...then of course the time when you had your turn, and pushed me away with both hands, yelling something like why did i ever used to love you. but unlike you, i couldn't force those thoughts of laying in the grass together, watching the sky for the clouds that weren't there, waiting for things to happen, wondering what to do. they haunted me, and you're here in my wake asking me to forget. how easy life must be for you then.....i'm glad you're not missing anything. in fact, boy A in paragraph 1 probably isn't missing anything either.

so for them both - sure. i'll cover up those nights. i'll smooth over those long afternoons and no longer reminisce with the past. that's what you've been asking for, isn't it?

i guess if it'll make you happy....